leche flan!

tanginey! kabwisit e! binalot ng bad vibes gabi ko, ang saya ko na kanina kahit masakit tyan ko tapos ganun2x nlng wasak! pag puno ka na talaga sasabog at sasabog ka! wala kang pakelam kahit sinong mabangga! paisa lang kanina ko pa to gustong isigaw e pukinginaaaaa!

yon sa haba ng panahon ngaun nlng ulit ako may nakaaway bukod sa asawa ko! di ko mapigil init ng  ulo ko, alam mo ung simula pa lang alam mo na kung san papunta ung usapan para akong baril na hinihintay lang makalabit ang gatilyo tapos booom!!!

masarap malaman na may mga taong masaya para sayo (lalo na ang kapamilya) pag ok ang lahat, at kung hindi naman ok ang sitwasyon iaangat ka o simpleng suporta lang sa desisyon mo para makapagpatuloy ka ng maayos. ung ganun lang masaya ka na kasi alam mong yung makakabuti sa kapakanan mo ang gusto nila para sayo.

wala na sigurong mas masaklap pa kung sarili mong dugo at laman ang unang hihila sayo sa tuwing bumubuti buhay mo at siya ring mambabaon sayo sa tuwing nasasadlak ka sa putik!

leche! ate ng asawa ko ung nakaaway ko putangina! nabwisit ako e masyadong negative ubod umaapaw! nakakasura! lalo tuloy sumakit tagiliran ko pati ulo ko! tangina kasi matagal ng nakaturn-off chat un sakin sa fb bakit kasi tinurn-on ko pa kanina! ang hirap mabago ng mood ko shett ilang oras na lumipas pero di pa rin ako mapanatag (haha di sanay te? haha hayup!) ewan ko ba painit lang ng painit ulo ko ayaw makalma kanina pa e!!! pati asawa ko nagkabadtripan na kami nu ba yan!

bukas gulo na yan malamang! sige lang ng matapos na tong kabaliwan na to! makapag-dasal na lang ng makalma naman!

sakit pa rin tyan ko! out!

boundless

I just wanna be here, even if I don't have any subject in mind. I just wanna be here.

The liberating feeling it gives me is just so wonderful. I wouldn't trade this space to any other media platforms out there. This is somewhat I call home. It knows my heart.

Whenever I'm jaded, I take a break and immerse myself to the serene and placid realm I know.
With joyful heart, I'm singing through words and I can see the echo-ing happiness before my very eye.
It makes my time worth while.

The view from here makes me see things clearer as for myself, my surroundings and my life. It makes me appreciate simple things in their grandest ways.

I thank God for giving me the love of writing what's in my heart. It makes me pure and it gives me bliss!

What a great way to start the week. Good night. :)

#smashingweekahead
#goodvibes

Poison Ivy? Hell No!

"Start spending time with the right people - people you enjoy, who love and appreciate you, encourage you to improve in healthy and exciting ways, make you feel more alive, and not only embrace who you are now, but also embody who you want to be, unconditionally."

I got the above statement from one of my fb friends post yesterday, upon reading and liking the post it made me think of someone who is becoming more and more special to me as each day goes by and also thinking of all the things I went through til the day I met this someone and how it affected my life.

Being away from home for half a decade means being miles away from loved ones, dear friends and up to the the very last thing you used to have/do/live with for the rest of your life. Sure it's never easy! A life-changing event where getting lost is like your everyday and finding yourself is such a beautiful gift you'll receive during Christmas day! It's hard and even harder when you can't find a helping hand to pull you up when you're drowning too deep from sea of an unfamiliar crowd. (It's a suicide! Seriously! And what the hell? I'm not even out of the country! Maybe that's me being the true masochist myself! Lol!)

And there I met a lot of new faces, people that gave me friendships even just for a little while, people that made me feel less of myself, people that somehow made me happy and people I least expect would love me but they did! I thank these people but none of them gave me the ecstatic feeling of my younger years. I hardly find compassion and delight in this part of the world maybe because I'm different from them and we're not speaking the same language. I don't know! My husband always tells me this "umiral na naman pagka anti-social mo!" I admit there are times I felt I didn't need other people, well not literally the "people" just their drama! If I don't feel good about something or someone I just let it go! That way I'm wasting no time and I'm saving my ass from the fires of hell! It's not playing safe you know (as I heard someone said ps referring to me) fyi, it's becoming mindful of my actions, of what is right and wrong and at the same time shooing away bad vibes (just like you!) Sometimes, whether we like it or not if we have someone around who is full of negativity it radiates to us and we tend to react the same negative way! Duh! I hate it!

Lately I'm feeling so alive, young, free and most of all beautiful! :))))) It's because I have this new friend who is bubbly, cool, funny and very fashionista! I'm so happy we bumped into each other's lives. Being both married to a local we somehow understood each other well. She's a cebuana and older than me but deym! She's hawt! She's bringing me back to the times when I took 2 hours for a bath (just how much I love myself then! hahaha She doesn't have any idea how much she affects me every time that I'm with her. My good Lord thank you for allowing me to met this person I'm learning so much from her. It feels to have my bff's around whenever I'm with her. Just as I thought I wouldn't find another person as crazy as me, oh i was sooo wrong! She's even crazier that's why I'm enjoying so much!

Seriously, I'm starting to treasure this lady not just because she's a "friend". NO! Back to the statement on top of this post, She's all that! It doesn't matter if she feels the same or not, if she treasure the friendship or not all I'm saying is I found to whom exactly the statement was referring to. That's because even I just met her a few months ago she taught me a lot of things! She reminded me of what I deserve and what the best I can do and become more of myself! She's making me more beautiful literally and as a person (i don't know if she notices that but my husband did) and as for me I seldom find people like that since I came here! She's no insecure and wants her friend to be beautiful as her. She's funny, she's ambitious but no inhibitions and just like me she doesn't want negativity to enter her system.

We're always spontaneous when we're together, we tackle anything and everything under the sun! She showed me places I've never been to, she teaches me things she thought I needed to know. Btw, thank you Ivy!

I'm glad you came! :D

♪ ♫♪ ♫

now playing: soundtrack of walang hanggan

mood: calm

time check: 4:00 am

wow! it feels so good to listen to the music.. very relaxing and calming.. i just realized i haven't done this for ages.. my daughter just fell asleep after streaming hundreds of videos so while she's doing that i took my time by checking out the latest rnb songs. funny thing, i didn't know where to start! i found myself outdated! i tried to recall the last rnb song i've heard on the radio and all i can think of was price tag by jessie j that was soooo last year! never mind, i don't need to stress myself at this time of the night.

because lately i'm having lss over the songs in the teleserye walang hanggan i just seach through 'em and press play! perfect! exactly what i never knew i needed!

note to self: spend sometime alone with feel good music on, very therapeutic! highly recommended! lol!

because of our busy life,  most of us tend to forget simple things that sometimes makes everything alright. we're rushing and hurrying for what we think is essential to our everyday not knowing we've been missing out the very essence of it.

#breathe. #take time. #control.

Life is good!

<3<3<3

:)

so i woke up and got a lot of things to do but i still don't want to do it! my goodness ang tamad ko lang te! ayoko na tinatamad na kong tamarin haha wala na kong nagawa matatapos na ang sabado! cge para may silbi naman ako ngaung araw, gagawa ako ng post.

nagdate kami nung thursday ng asawa ko, well lunch date to be exact. dahil nga tamad na tamad akong kumilos these past few days di ako nagluto nung araw na yon (buti na lang!) ayun e di nanlibre siya! (eh kung araw-arawin ko kayang wag na magluto haha) hinatid muna namin sa skul ang bebe namin tapos nun gora na kami.

kumain kami sa tay ingo, bagong bukas lang yata na kainan yan dito sa lugar namin, ewan, baka matagal na huli lang talaga ko sa balita! infairness, ang sarap naman ng food nila. native na manok specialty nila and seafoods. umorder lang kami ng inasal with unli rice, sinigang na baboy saka 1.5 na pepsi, ayos na ayos solb!    sinadyang iwan ng mister ko cellphone ko na ginagamit nya bago kami umalis ng balur kasi alam nya na ang mangyayari magpapapichur ako! di nya lang alam ginawa ng tahanan ng camera ko ang bag ko! bwahahaha!

ewan ko ba kung ba't asar na asar talaga siya tuwing di ako mapakali sa kakapichur 'pag kasama nya ko (di man lang suportahan talent ko nyak! hahaha) di naman ako self-portraiter lols pramis! di naman puro muka ko lng ang subject! minsan mukha nya rin haha!

ilalagay ko pa sana ang mga pics kaso alas sais na pala magsasaing muna ko! ciao!

tatambayan kita ulit mamaya bloggy namimiss pala kitang talaga! :)

2:15 am
at ako nga'y nagbalik! mejo late na napachika pa ng konte sa fb pero ok lang tatapusin ko to' pampa-good vibes lang bago matulog para happy sunday bukas.:)

@Tay Ingo

eto na nga, e di humirit na kong magpapichur sa kanya... aba! eto nagtulug-tulugan ang mokong lols! oh e di ikaw na kj!  

pinichuran ko na lang tuloy tong design ng kubo na tinuluyan namin, ang sarap dito ang presko lang parang probinsya haha! gandang idea neto parang gusto ko tuloy pag' nagkaron na ko ng sariling bahay may ganito din, tambayan lang tapos lalagay ko din pichur ng bebe ko.. how cute! (bawat kubo may pichur yata ng apo ng may-ari or junanaks)

ayaaaaan! o di ba no choice siya di pa kasi siya maka-lafus, sinigang pa lang ang sinerved at plato hahaha!

pinilit ko pa siya nyan ng bonggels para lang kuhaan ako! 

e kainan na, di ko na pinilit chura pa lang parang mananapak na sa gutom lol! baka magwalk-out siya bigla ako pa pagbayarin :p

moment ko na! busog-lusog na siya e, nagkusa na siyang pichuran ako..:))

tas ngaun wumawacky kp jan hahaha

uwian na! :D thanks sa lunch dad! bukas ulit ha'

blah!

gosh! i'm so bored today! though i had a productive day but still i'm bored to death shetttt! you know, one of those days! sigh*

the moment am about to fall asleep i got up, turned the pc and do some random browsing over the net but nothing brought me back to my senses! i really hate it! i don't want to do anything because i'm tired, so tired that i don't feel like sleeping and it gets me really really bored! i'm not complaining how my day was because as i said it was a productive one. i ended up typing this post because this is the only thing left for me to do. no conversing required, no nothing. just me and my boredom at 3:30 in the morning!

sometimes i'm soooo in need of sensible talk just to make sure my juices (all kinds) won't dried up! btw, that's my dillema i'm stuck to one kind of environment with same species! and it gets tirin' and sickening at times! though i've found ways of coping but that won't solve the problem because i always end up breathing that same air! conversing the same way! i want diversion! now, i just proven myself how bored i really am! yeah talk about diversion!

that's why i really hate feeling this way because i'm thinking too much and gets easily bored at the same time! nothing will do! really sucks!